Originally Posted by
krysta lynne
so sick right now. and i have a broken foot that is driving me crazy. to top it off the pressure form the cast rubbing on my toe cause my toenail to start growing into my toe. so i had to basically cut it open two days ago and remove the nail. so now my foot feels like it has its own heartbeat because of course i have a million things to run around and do on my broken foot. (ie exams, groceries, etc and i dont drive so im walking around to all these places in the frozen outside).... almost choked to death on my own mucus coughing this morning. and yesterday i was basically buried in my own shame because i was belittled to the point of nothingness by someone who is supposed to be there for me. there are also many other things which i cant really go into detail about because i cant type as a crying sobbing mess.
i feel like i am going to simply collapse. and to be perfectly honest, i dont think anyone would really care except the kids.
i guess ive reached a point where i feel completely helpless. I have no desire to eat sleep or do anything besides busywork because its the only thing keeping me from actually breaking down into a puddle of mush.
:( sorry. i needed to vent. and i keep getting messages from people saying uplifting and sweet things. im sorry i havent responded. i really think ive hit a point of depression that although im aware of it im clueless as to how to fix it. i do appreciate that people on here express concern and try to cheer me up. and im sorry for my lack of dialogue. (a couple of you should know this apology is directed right at you)