My bf leave me after holidays spent with his family. Waste of my holidays!

[Brooke_]

I have a sister who lives in Dubai and her and her husband have two little ones. My sister and her kids were just here visiting (she comes every summer) and she wanted me to fly back to Dubai with her (it's a long flight with two kids aged three and 16 months). I was tempted to go because she'd pay for most of my flights and it'd be a good vacation and more time to spend with my niece and nephew but I already had plans to go back to WPG with my boyfriend at that time.
Well we got back from our trip to WPG (we are actually both born and raised there). I thought it was an awesome time but he'd kind of been ignoring me for a few days when we got back. We got home Tuesday morning and friday night he insists on coming over even though I said I was in bed.
He comes over, and instantly I can tell, you can just feel it. He is breaking up with me. We've been dating almost two years, we just got back from an awesome vacation (spent most of our time near Kenora at his family's cabin with his parents), and things were good between us. I was completely blind sided by this, not a single warning sign. He couldn't even really tell me why, I think what I got from it is that he just isn't able to fully commit and wants something different than I do.

Aside from being completely heartbroken, sad, hurt, ANGRY, confused, so many things I am now upset that I missed this opportunity to go to Dubai. He told me he's been feeling different for the past month but was trying to work it out. I wish he'd been more open sooner so I could have done something that mattered more than spending a week at the cabin with HIS family. My family was actually at my lake maybe 15 minutes from his and we only spent one day there with them. I could have either been in Dubai with my niece and nephew, or at the lake with my family. Now I've used my holidays and wasted it on him and his family when he knew it wasn't what he wanted. He said he had a lot of fun and it wasn't the trip that caused this, he's been feeling this for a while. Maybe I'm trying to make this my focus so that I'm not so heartbroken because it is easier to deal with being angry opposed to being sad and heartbroken. But still, I think I have a valid point, lol.

We haven't spoken since the night he left me. It's so hard but I'm just not the type to bother him when he clearly doesn't care anymore.
I thought he was the one...


***UPDATE and then I can't sleep because I'm so heartbroken so I hear my roommate up downstairs, so I go down and she is slicing potatoes on a mandolin (going to throw them in the microwave to make them into chips) and she's doing it so slowly I ask her to let me do it, and she says "yeah I just had to get stitches once because I..." AND RIGHT THEN I SLIP MY THUMB THROUGH THE BLADE. I did exactly what my roommate had done before, bleeding so bad we just got back from the hospital. They had to bandage it up. I also won't be able to work my second job tomorrow as a server (not complaining). Life is crazy, full of surprises.

[MillieH]

I'm sorry Brooke... that totally sucks... You are probably right about you being angry instead of the sad and heart broken.. you are probably going to go through a range of emotions.. relationships can really suck sometimes..

[Shirnette]

You have all right to feel the way you do. I hear ya but would encourage to deal your feelings as positively as possible & don't beat upon yourself too much. These things happen but you'll eventually find that man who was truly meant for you. You are alive so there is hope..chin up.. cheers!

[walkonby]

Brooke, I feel the pain you have, both the heart and your poor hand. The fact that you can type all this out, and talk about the breakup is probably one of the healthiest things you can do for yourself. Keep letting those emotions surface, deal with them head on....much better than curling up in a ball and weeping. So sucks about the missed vaca with your niece and nephew though, but maybe another opportunity will come up! Best of luck

[lghend]

Oh I'm so sorry!! That's the worst. What a jerk!! I know it hurts soooooo bad but keep reminding yourself that it's meant to be because there is someone AMAZING out there waiting for you. You do NOT want to be in a dead end relationship when you finally meet him. HUGS to you, we've all been there and I guarantee that we all ended up better because of it.