Chronic Pain Management Support Group

[Skippy]

Without DW's insurance we would probably be bankrupt.

[Duff]

It must be awful to be in pain.

[Skippy]

Saw Dr.today,told him can't walk much at all.
Need to wait for specialist...

[dealsniffer]

Hey Skippy-how is the wait going? you see the specialist this month right? I hope you get some answers and some relief!
Angela-I am happy to hear about your full time job! That sounds like quite an accomplishment! Congrats! Take it easy tho!
TidyTaurus-I hope you feel better soon and you are less miserable. It sounds like you are having a rough time.
As for me, my knee joints have been getting really stiff alot lately and I am not sure why. Could just be something that will go away. But for now it is causing me alot of grief. It could also be that I am being up too much too but I hope that isn't the case because I am up so darn little as it is!! Since I can sit for about 1/2hr comfortably, I am doing word puzzles again! I completely forgot about them because I had to stop doing them for quite awhile because I didn't have the strength after surgery to hold up the books. That was awful because I LOVE doing the word games and it takes my mind off the pain sooo much! I think because it requires concentration and stuff to do the puzzles? So I sit for about 1/2hr on the couch and do the puzzles and I am loving it sooo much! They are those PennyPress books you buy in the magazine area of the store usually and they have things like cryptograms and logic stuff and what ever else in them. Sorry about going on about that but it helps me take my mind off the pain a bit and while I still feel the pain-it is less and more managable when I am focused on something else. It also keeps me from overdoing it outside and still occupied that I am not bored. Plus I am excersizing my brain! lol That is good you know-use it or lose it I am told! lol

[Skippy]

No need to apologise Dealsniffer,it is therapeutic at times just to vent.
Doing something helps take one's mind off their pain.However when you over do it,then you realise it too late.

[tidytaurus]

Skippy is so right Dealsniffer do not over do things. I appreciate the compassion that everyone shows here. I am not so miserable today so I guess thats good news for everyone around me. I have come to a new understanding the more it hurts I would say it can't get much worse and it does so I will just take one day at a time and try to make the most of it. My new pain meds are not controlling the pain and the antibiotics make me itchy all over but only 1 more day to go. I just want to have a good day once in a while to balance things out. One day soon I will feel so much better and all of this will just be a bad memory. I hope everyone who is in pain has the same dream and like lotto 649 it could happen.

[dealsniffer]

lol tidytaurus-I try to think the same way and think that the pain will someday get better and that all the agony will eventually just be a memory and memories are not as painful as the time we are going through it. I hope it is more possible than the lotto 649 though!!! lol I do get what you mean Skippy about not realizing you overdid it until it is too late. But I have come up with something that maybe will help me-I tell myself I can't complain about pain that I get from overdoing it becaues I technically made it that way. That way I am definitely less likely to overdo it if I can't complain about it! LOL Maybe. Still working on it. Well tidytaurus-I hope you continue to feel better. I hope that we all have at least one day once in awhile that we have a good day that we can enjoy ourselves and not have to try so hard to focus on other stuff just to keep from feeling the pain so much.

[Skippy]

I hear you Dealsniffer,and I realise its my own fault but I still complain cuz it hurts so much.
Today sucked big time,cuz everytime I tried to walk,I could not get past the block,the pain is too much!
I can't even do much here uz once I do something to help out,I pay for hours.

[dealsniffer]

I hear you too Skippy! I know what you mean. I hope things improve for you though. Emotionally I have just been a wreck the last little while with everything going on. As the appeal hearing gets closer I get more and more depressed. Not because I have anything to hide or that I screwed up but because the system is screwed up and not fair in any way and I am worried they will screw my life up as much as they can. Being in as much pain as I am in-I can't handle this on top of it right now. Sorry, I know I vented on a whole seperate thread but it seems so big and like my life is about to end that it is in every thought I have. Anything I know to focus on something else to help with pain is not helping me with this monster. It probably isn't as big as it seems but I think it seems bigger while I am in it. I feel like I am drowning and I can't save myself.

[Skippy]

I hear you too Skippy! I know what you mean. I hope things improve for you though. Emotionally I have just been a wreck the last little while with everything going on. As the appeal hearing gets closer I get more and more depressed. Not because I have anything to hide or that I screwed up but because the system is screwed up and not fair in any way and I am worried they will screw my life up as much as they can. Being in as much pain as I am in-I can't handle this on top of it right now. Sorry, I know I vented on a whole seperate thread but it seems so big and like my life is about to end that it is in every thought I have. Anything I know to focus on something else to help with pain is not helping me with this monster. It probably isn't as big as it seems but I think it seems bigger while I am in it. I feel like I am drowning and I can't save myself.

You will get through it,in your pain you will find the strength to fight.
Be prepared,write down everything you can think of,then bring it all together concisely.
Been there done that,feel free to vent PM.
I will pray for you and your situation.

[dealsniffer]

Thanks Skippy! Getting all the stuff together has been difficult because I can't sit up long and I need to sit up to get the stuff together and what not. But I have it together now and I just need to wait till Thursday now and hope it goes the right way and I don't have to pay for their mistakes.

[Skippy]

There is No management!

[dealsniffer]

There is No management!

Sorry Skippy maybe I am just half asleep but I am not sure what you mean? no management to what? Sorry-I am confused. How are you doing? My appeal is tomorrow morning so I am going to bed now. Almost scared to go to sleep because of the nightmares I have been having about this whole thing but I am also so tired... so to bed I go. I have to remember they are just bad dreams right? nothing more. Hopefully none of them come true!

[Skippy]

Sorry Skippy maybe I am just half asleep but I am not sure what you mean? no management to what? Sorry-I am confused. How are you doing? My appeal is tomorrow morning so I am going to bed now. Almost scared to go to sleep because of the nightmares I have been having about this whole thing but I am also so tired... so to bed I go. I have to remember they are just bad dreams right? nothing more. Hopefully none of them come true!

No management to the pain!,life,anything.
The pain can be so overwhelming
I've offered a prayer for you today,may you know much grace and peace at your appeal.

[tidytaurus]

Skippy I am so sorry you are in such pain. I hope the specailist helps you. It sucks that the only time there is a reprieve it is with meds, we can't sleep all the time. Since my recent fall I have increased my meds and this seems to be working but I will have to see dr again next week. Dealsniffer I am thinking of your troubles today and I hope you speak to someone who recognizes honesty because its rare these days. I hope the stress of today does not set back your healing.