I spent the 24 hours I was banned doing a lot of soul searching and thinking about what I had done. I have come to realize some things about myself, thanks to the wonderful team that runs this site. I wanted to share.
I often assume everyone has some degree of a sense of humour. I see now that this is a dangerous assumption, as jokes can hurt like a thousand knives cutting through your heart.
I did not mean to imply that anyone would be a d-word for giving out toothpaste for Halloween. Often, the one that gives out toothpaste is the one that cares the most about the children. The d-word is not a word that should be thrown around lightly, and in the future I will reserve it for only the most heinous and grievous misdeeds.
I have come to understand that there are places where feelings, opinions and thoughts are not welcome. I should not impose my will on people who come to this site because they don't have to feel, opine or think. This was unfair of me and I sincerely and truly apologize.
I also apologize for my ignorance in not knowing what the moderators consider rude. I will make a more concerted effort to understand the objectivity of subjective things better on this forum, and indeed, in my life. Who knows how many countless people have thought me rude when I was merely trying to converse and be funny.
Sometimes there isn't room for conversation or jokes, especially on internet discussion forums.
Again, I am gravely and truly sorry for my behaviour and will try harder to fit your standards from now on. Like Emily Dickinson before me, I will save my attempts at discourse for my diary. Things like ponderings and musings and questions and answers are private things. I understand that now, thanks to the time-out you so generously provided me with. I can't thank you enough for this kindness.
In the words of Emily Post, “
She must not swing her arms as though they were dangling ropes; she must not switch herself this way and that; she must not shout; and she must not, while wearing her bridal veil, smoke a cigarette”. I will try to live my life, and conduct myself on these boards, according to these principals, and am blessed to have had people to show me the path.