I have never been big on New Year Resolutions, honestly I find them too easy to break. If you want to change something waiting till the New Year to make the change, I do not know, not my thing.
With this being said 2020 did give me the opportunity to better reflect on myself and life. I realized I need to make some changes or I was going to drive myself literally insane. I could not keep up the patterns taking place in my life of pushing myself until I couldn't push any further (when I started staying up late and getting up at 4 am just to tackle my to do list) and than crashing was not healthy. Not to mention the panic/anxiety attacks that came with it. I really started to feel like I was not good enough and everything that happened was because yet again I had failed.
The main things I will be working on for 2021 are balance in my life, do not get me wrong I know my job is my job and things are going to happen but after going 3 months of working 12 to 14 hour days 6 to 7 days a week I have learned even during these times I need to find 1 or 2 hours for myself. Also time for myself is not cleaning the house or taking on household tasks.
The other thing I will work on is organization, I find when I am organized and can lay things out for myself even if I do not accomplish them it helps me to manage my anxiety.
So with this being said last night:
I created a meal plan for this week and I am really looking forward to this week's dinners. I have a nice variety of different types of meals and these meals will use up some fresh items and leftovers we have on hand. I find when I meal plan it also helps to eliminate food waste.
Then I made a To-Do/Goals for January, these are some of the bigger items I want to tackle around the house. With that being said, I am trying to be realistic with what I can achieve and not push myself too far where I work, sleep & clean.
I have learned as much as I love a good to-do-list I need to be more realistic last year I started the year with To-Do-List coming out my ears and instead of these being my goals to organize myself it became all about how many things could I mark off. Literally okay the last 3 nights I did 3 things so tonight aim for 5 things, okay the last 3 nights I got 5 things done so tonight aim for 7. Then just getting my January to-do-list done was not good enough how much of February's could I tackle and be done before February 1st came. I became very obsessive and it was all I could think about and if I felt I came up short I lost it. So this year will be about getting things done but also taking care of myself.
One day, oh I hope it is a day soon I will have a clean house that I can scrub from top to bottom and a day will come when I can say everything is done vs right now where I am just okay with getting nothing done today.