Need advice/need to vent

[TudorChick]

I have had it!

many if you know that my father has recovered from a massive heart attack, and he is doing great (awesome).
some of you may know the labyrinth that is our "competition of love" for my dad.


I let my older sister have Christmas with my dad and mom.( Btw my mom and i have had a tepid relationship..she always hated that i never wanted to fit in and had a gothic look in school and now, and i didnt seek employment which kept me kissing asses and making 6 figures on being fake, but my sister did and she loves her more)

my sister also wanted them for easter...i asked my dad why my sister has them for two holidays in a row and he said that my sister didn't think we could do a dinner and they want to get away...fine....but i know it's my mom. she only loves my sister because she has money and can do things...it makes me feel like crap. i have always felt inferior to my sister but atleast i had that...i had being able to see my parents on holidays and now she makes them drive 6 hours so she can flaunt how better she is...i actually really hate my sister right now. i could never compete...and now out of the 3 of us kids, i am the loser. my brother is an eternal bachelor and has done nothing but get high, buy instruments, play in a punk band and he makes my parents more proud than anyone. i am nothing compared to my sister and brother.

just needed to say that.

thanks for the vent.

[Anna Michele]

I gave up on family holidays a long time ago. May I suggest spending regular days with your mom like maybe earth day go for a walk or one Sunday a month go for coffee. Make your own special days

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[MillieH]

Have your mother /father and sister actually said these things to you or is it your perception that they feel that way?