Good Morning Everyone,
I did find my ambition yesterday but maybe I shouldn't have.
I needed to clean my kitchen, it was a disaster, all of the hand dishes from Thursday and Friday were not done and we ran the dishwasher Thursday and never emptied the dishwasher so my kitchen needed attention. I emptied the dishwasher, reloaded it, did the hand dishes and cleaned all the counters. Now normally I would stop because I hate washing my kitchen floor but I thought, no, we are going to clean the floor and then the kitchen is done. I was vacuuming the floor and moving the mats and somehow knocked the vacuum over and it came down and hit me on the cheek.
It actually did not hurt so I finished the floors and then realized it was starting to swell so back to the couch I went with an ice pack on my cheek. Not going to lie I was super worried I was going to end up with this massive bruise I would have to explain all week but so far no bruise.
Later in the day, I had some fresh Pineapple I needed to use up so I decided to make a Pineapple Upside Down Cake and decided to record it as a Reel for IG. All good made the cake and put it in the oven. I went to take my phone out of the tripod and somehow my finger got stuck in the Tripod and I ripped a chunk out of my finger.
Yep, should have spent the day on the couch. But in all honesty, super happy with what I got done. I am trying so hard to get everything back on track and to be honest, I have mixed emotions. Feeling number one, I feel like I am stuck in this vicious circle of knowing I need to do it, telling myself this is the week we turn it, then feeling number two is me failing. It is like I know I need to do it but I just cannot get ahead, things keep happening.
Yesterday was a bit of a day for me because not only am I failing at the house stuff but now I am also super behind at work. I was supposed to spend 3 days, maybe 5 tops with a staff member, but I ended up spending three weeks with them. This is what it is, it is my job but just before this I was given a list of tasks they wanted me to work on and originally I said "Oh no problem 100% by the end of June, I will have this done, I was expected a larger list." Needless to say, none of that list has been done and now there is no way I will have it done by the end of June. Now don't get me wrong, my boss knows there is no pressure there, the pressure for me from myself and again just feeling like I missed a goal. I was just feeling very overwhelmed because a lot of the house stuff isn't oh just give me a day it will be done and then the work stuff isn't oh I can knock that out this week because there is so much background work I need to get done, I haven't even started.
Last night I went to bed feeling like I need the world to just stop for a week so I can try to catch up. I know some people have said well you have vacation time, take a week but the issue is, my job doesn't stop because I am off. I need a week where nothing new comes in, which is why I say I need the world to stop. But, it is a new day and I will do my best to do what I can and go from there.
Happy Sunday Everyone.