@crafter , thank you, and those words are so true and what I try to remind myself when I do not get things done is I need to listen to my body because I know if I don't I will get sick and that won't help anyone. I will admit my one nonnegotiable is my sleep, doesn't mean it happens every night I do struggle with sleep issues but I go to bed early so I can get up early.
We do have coverage and I have thought about talking to someone but on the flip side it is something else to schedule into my life and right now between work and appointments for Mom, I am feeling a little stretched thin.
@coupon girl I do not know how your daughter does it with a child, I mean I get people do it but it is so hard. I get when people say step back at work but what do you do when it has to get done. We could not delay the move because it did not work for me, I cannot delay someone starting because my schedule is already full we have to make it work. I don't know about your daughter but for myself I am in a department of me, myself and I so I just have to get it done.
I am hoping if I can get the house tidied up (with focusing on the main floor where we live our lives) I can get someone to come in and do and deep clean and then depending on how things goes maybe get someone once a month. But I also know Mom will probably will object as she does not seem to want people in her space. I have saved up some $$$ to get some renos done but every time I bring up getting them done I get a list of reasons why now is not the time, this has lead me to believe she does not want people in her safe space.
Thank you everyone, I know I keep going in the same circle and just when I feel like I broke the habit or am coming out the other side life slaps me in the face and sends me two steps backwards.